Today I feel empty like never before. The horoscope says it will get better. It says that I will soon find a partner. I want to hold out. I want to stay. I want to get rid of all the bad thoughts. Maybe everything is going to chance when I find someone to share my day with. Maybe I should not get in contact with other persons. Maybe someone should kill me. There's so much to achieve. I want to create. I want to love. I want to be loved. God is everywhere. Not in me. Come on god, why don't you like me ? Fill me up with your glory semen.