from 14:00 to 16:00 i had a nice date with the girl i fancy. i thought it all went pretty well, i paid for her and we talked about a lot of things, found similarities etc, well then she said "i found it really nice" and i just answered "k, that's it then, nice means boring as fuck" and she immediately responded "no, i'm a honest person, if i tell someone to fuck off i tell him directly, and i found it really nice" then my heart was really jumping around. well then we said goodbye and i took my tramp home
then when i came on irc i told my friend who is in the same class as her about the date. then when i just wrote ironically "tomorrow you will sneak to her and hear what she thinks about me" and he just stated "..." and then he said "i don't want to say it"
then i said "wtf ? come on come on!!"
he "...."
me: "is it about me and her???"
he "yes"
me " let me guess, she finds me interesting,but nothing more"
he "shit, i shouldn't have said anything, but don't tell her you know it from me"
so, now i sit here, depressed and try to kill the last seed of hope that implants the thought "hey, maybe her opinion about you has changed after the date" but it won't work...
ok i will listen to Burzum now and try to squeeze my emtions into one package and throw it aboard