Coming from someone with experience dealing with a lot of very deep depression at that age, my honest advice is to get over this and do EVERYTHING FUCKING POSSIBLE to do well in school and get into college/uni. I let (and still am, to some extent) depression eat at me during those years, I ended up barely graduating at the bottom of my class with a 1.3 gpa when I came into junior year with 4.0 from k-10th. All because I let it eat at me, I let the hate build up, I let the self-hate develop. I just started to not fucking care about anything, anyone, or even myself. I didn't care about school, I didn't care about graduating, I didn't care about ever going to college or working. Now I'm almost 21 years old, still leeching off a parent, because I've been so sick and depressed that I can't even work or function fully in society. Fuck, I can't even play video games or talk to people properly because of all the anxiety and pressure I put on myself through it. Why? Because I didn't work through the shit when it was in the initial stages. Right now at that age is the absolute most important time in your fucking life to determine how successful and happy you will be in the future.