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HELLO EVERYONE!

I doubt I'll be up and about and irritating anyone on the site anytime soon but I thought I'd just let everyone know what I've been up to. I'm just gonna cut and paste from a couple of emails of what i've been doing, since like... say when I left South Africa (2004).

NOTE: this is very long and can get confusing, don't complain, only read it if you wanna know what I've been up to, I just cut and paste various emails

Um, well, god, where to start! Well, this may come to you
as a shock, well firstly, you know that I came over to the
uk for lora(girlfriend), yeah, well that farewell party before I left, well, eish, it was a crap night, not the party, but what
happened.

Lora's best friend from the uk was in SA at the time, and
she came to my farewell. Near the end of the night, whilst
fucked off my face, she decides to let me know that lora
had cheated on me 5 times whilst in the UK. And then she
came onto me. I ended up sleeping with her and it all went
down hill from there. I told lora the next day what
happened, and her response wasn't good, I started getting
suicide notes and stuff from her, when I arrived in the UK,
I learnt that everything her friend said was true, and lora
got a new bf about 2 hours after I told her what happened
:)

During that time I sort of had a slight emotional
breakdown, I cut off my braids (if you remember me having
braids) piece by piece, smoked myself fucked up, and cant
really remember most of the last 2 weeks I was in SA.

Um, the uk has been pretty crap really, I went to a place
called milton keynes first, cause thats where lora was and
I didn't know where else to go, but that really sucked so
after 4 months I moved to a place called plymouth. I'm
still there now :) life is ok, but rather lonely, and girls
like to use me the pretty boi. :/

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 20:24:57 +0200
What have I been up to? errrmmmmm, you first! Life has been
crazeee crazy. You have no idea, it's really scary how much
I've been through. Well I've been in plymouth for 4 months,
the place is awesome! The people are cool and the nightlife
is great... (not to mention the sea and dart moor just down
the road) but.... there is one problem... no jobs! at all!
it's horrible! I am working at the moment (after being
penniless for 3 months...don't ask me how I survived
*whisper* whore *whisper*) But you don't want to know where
I'm working! it's embarrassing! *whisper* McDonalds
*whisper* But the people there are pretty cool and it's
paying the rent (sort of) but I'm desperately looking for a
new job.

London was amazing! My friend that I went with had a friend
in london thats a taxi driver and he gave me a full tour
for free! and I saw like everything, it's scary. The big
point was when I was standing in the very centre of london,
with all the theaters and big screens on the buildings and
all these big red buses going by (that I used to see in
books and on TV), and it hit me "omg, I'm in london... I'm
on the other side of the world!" ... and then at the same
moment these guys behind me burst out in afrikaans (south
african language) it was like "wtf??!?!" So far away... and
at the same time so close!

I went around camden town the most, strange amazing magick
place, really weird. But the best bit was the national art
gallery, I'm not sure if you knew I was very big into art,
but really... wow. The feeling I got from seeing some of
the paintings for real is so unexplainable... it's amazing,
I actually wanted to cry! Very humbling experiance...

You went to mexico! you gotta tell me about that! was it
hot? did you drink alot of tequila? ;) I wanna go to mexico
:(( :P

Hehehe, my house is :/// at the moment it has no electric
OR gas! my landlady sucks and my housemates are dodgy, it's
like a student house but no ones a student! YOURE not cold!
I'm freezing! I've never been this cold in my life! ArgAGG,
i've been trying to buy some clothes (you'll think my taste
is really strange :P very .alt )

I've lost weight :((( The 3 months without cash was not
kind to my stomach, but mac donalds is helping me get back
to my original form (yay!) I'm even sekzy again.

NEVER STOP THE PARTY!!! oh well, maybe... need the cash...
sort of...but beer...oooOOOooo beer... mmmmmmm.

On the female front, um... i've been used...a bit, you
know, where I come from its usually the guys that use the
girls... but i've been used so badly :((( physically!
why!!!! ....oh well, i'm just continuing my search for true
love *sniff*


Wed, 05 Jan 2005 14:13:54 +0200
Hey! I'm a bit shattered, think i'm picking up a few
allergies. Christmas has been awesome, i went to a family
get together with one of my friends, and his family
actually bought me presents and stuff! was so so surprised!
but the best bit was that it snowed! on christmas! It was
the first time I saw snow and I was really amazed, I kept
running out to play and everyone was like "...it's just
snow?" Thats something I'm going to remember for my entire
life cause I'll probably wont have another white christmas
again. SO... wow :))

Then I was sick for a bit, in bed and stuff, then new years
happened, this girl was surgically glued to my face for the
whole night, going on a date tonight. And then a couple of
nights ago I went on a blind date set up by my housemate,
was pretty cool, cause she came to my house pretty late
cause she was working, and she arrived and then it was like
"So... what you wanna do..?" "dunno...you wanna come back
to mine and have some shrooms?" "yeah ok"

:)) Well we had an awesome conversation, but
unfortuanately, she doesn't see me as anymore than a friend
*shrug* Ummm, nothing else that interesting i'm afraid.

I'm going back to south africa on the 10th of march, then
I'll probably come back here again after a month, might go
back to MK, who knows!

Well, about the whole cause of religion, if you don't
believe in ALL the beliefs of religion, then you shouldn't
be part of the religion. Being a JW is tough, because you
get extradited from everyone you know, it's like black
mail, as I said before, all my best friends at school were
JW, and when school finished I never saw them again.
Personally I don't agree with that, but a belief is a
belief. With the 1000's of christian religions out there, I
think the best is to just believe in the bible and make
your own decisions, hell thats how the jehova's started,
some guy made his own interpretation of the bible and other
people started to follow them, never mind the 1900 years
before. Personally, I've gotten to the point where I don't
want to believe in a christian god, because if he's real
he's a fucking prick, can't love someone like that. Judaism
I like a whole lot more. At the moment, I... stay away from
religion, organised it's just stupid (ie. people in groups
are STUPID) but I do believe in.. something, I call it god.
But anyway, it's all for you to decide.

well, it seems that in my last month in the UK, I have been
kidnapped by some girl, she's chained me to her bed,
although she occasionally takes me out for walks(like now),
otherwise I'm just working... and thats about that, 1 month
to go, will be great to be back (go buy some mushrooms!!)
I'm not making babies no... what do you take me for!
Anyway, I don't have much time, but lots of love, see youy
soon!

Yeah, at the moment i'm trying to see just how much
mushrooms one can take over a short period of time, i'm
starting to feel very different and act a bit weird, it's
strange, but i don't wanna be who i who you know? :P

ummm, I made loads of friends and have been having an ok
time. And then about 2 months ago I finally got fed up of
living in the UK and just wanted to go home. And, according
to horrible fate prediction which I have, I knew something
was going to happen to keep me here, and it did, met some
girl at a pub, went home with her and kinda been there for
the past month. :)))

(Flew back to South Africa)

Well, I came back. I had no money for about a month and a
half. A girl that I was staying with was meant to send over
my last pay check (200 pounds) but she's just disappeared
it seems. I was just relaxing, I didn't really go out or
anything cause no cash.

In my life, my current, um, me and my last gf broke up a month and a half ago cause it was evident that I wasn't coming back to the UK. It was hard, but also relieving in a way. She's going through a really hard time and she has to do her last year of uni over and then her masters, so she's
not going anywhere either.

My brother came down this weekend, it was the first time i
had seen him in 2 years, so we've been chatting, man he's
smart! but also... he's grown very old, and when we talk
about life experience, he doesn't say anything cause he
hasn't experianced anything. My parents are the same, my
sisters earning quite a bit, so she's got a whole
entertainment system in her bedroom. I own the old red car
that we had the accident in now, it's crap, but I can go
from A to B.

I got a job doing deliveries for a place called delivery
extreme (very similar to Mr delivery) just so I had money
while I was looking for a proper job, but It actually earns
you quite a bit, like i've earned R250 in 4 hours.

I was very sad and depressed at first, and wanted to go
back to england. because it becomes very evident of the
differences, that you don't notice. But it all got sorted
with getting some money and seeing my friends, and making
new friends! SA is still awesome.

Since I got the last job I've been going out every friday,
and they get more and more insane as time goes on. I've
actually been going out loads. I fufilled my life long
dream of going out as a girl (rather over-rated, but I
pulled it off) (Next project is a strip club - but on
friday i'm getting some boxing gloves and fighting a girl)
and then other weird missions like getting fuckloads of
coke etc.

2 weeks ago I got a new job. Really really great. It's for
the same company I worked for in the UK! (merchants in
milton keynes) the salary is R5400 a month, and I'm really
enjoying it and the people I work with.

Whats been hard is that for the past 2 weeks i've been
working 2 jobs, so it's get up at 6am and get off work at
22:30. I've met my nephew, he's really cute, and very
intelligent eyes. I've also been partying insanely from
thurs to sun lately, I just stay at friends houses in town.

Future plans, I'm moving to my own place in green
point(cape town) on the 1st of july, waiting for my tax and
then I'm gonna buy a really fucking good laptop, and then
um, save, go out etc. I'm going to start studying through
unisa (home education - english degree)

Lifes been mad, but really good, I'm going by the ethos now
to go out of my way for others, no matter how hard. It
suprisingly works really well, I haven't lost anything,
cause I always get given back, and it makes me really
happy.

Contact with the UK died quickly, it's only really my ex
and um, my other ex that I'm keeping in contact with, but
it's ok, I don't have time, and I've already got a very
busy life here again.

Something i'm really looking forward to is seeing a girl I
really like on sat that I met last sat, just came back from
america for 5 years, and she skateboards and fights and
tackles and stuff. (that probably makes very little
sense... but I like her so so what? :) )

Ummm, thats my life in a nut shell (get me out! get me
out!) My 22nd was ok, better than my 21st atleast, i can
hardly remember anything, but I suppose that means it was
good :)

Recent:
Well, I got my first paycheck at my proper job. Um, about
going back to the UK, I don't think it's gonna happen hey,
I'm hoping to get my italian passport soon but its taking
really long. My brother is moving to Holland next year
(free holiday woo hoo!)

Ummm, i was in a car accident, my cars been written off,
but I'm ok. I've moved to town now, it's hectic. My ex
(like 3 ex's after you, the really really cool one) is
thinking of doing her masters (marine bio) at UCT next
year, if she comes down that would be >>>

I just cut my hair, it was past my shoulders, i'm now
getting a stylish model cut (trying to look like trent
reznor, dying my hair pitch black tonight again - too much
blonde showing). I'm also moved up in standards, so I only
wear levi's now.... well, jeans, and black t-shirts, thats
all I wear. (cept suits to work)

You arn't allowed to talk of your body unless its available
to me. :PPP

Settling down... unfortuanately yes. Started already, need
insurance on like, everything. need Pension, need to pay
for rent, food, studies etc etc. No life partners as yet.
My standards were high while I was with you, now they are
ridiculously high, but I don't mind, I have a rather large
porn collection.

Well! thats all folks! I live!!

Love tB0nE xxx