independence depends on interdependence?

Drink a lot

Sweet and loving medication. heavy medication.

going outside and making friends are two different things.

independent from what?

i'm kind of autist too you know

without my medication i wouldn't go outside and all these kinds of stuff, because of major anxiety/social anxiety/fear of the 'real' world/ and a bit of paranoia.

but with my medication i'm ok/good 75% of the time, i can go out without any problem, stay with my family without major drama, talk with other people with ease and so on...

but even with my medication i'm still playing thunderstruck 24/7 lol. Seems like meds can't work for everything :)

Yeah... step 1:

Stop playing quakelive 24/7 and make a cauncious effort of social interacting. It might be harder for you, but that's no excuse not to make the effort. It's just excuses at the end of the day, we all experience anxiety to some degree; but it's up to us if we choose to break out of the habit of not interacting with others.

does the no milk no wheat diet help? and what medication usually needs to be eaten.

would you care to send me your corn flakes leftovers

You have to be pretty fucking autist to play that shitty mode and map 24 7.

You have to be pretty fucking autistic to misspell autistic.

You have to be pretty autistic to do what you like doing.....

There's no excuse, playing a video game 24 7, not only that, but a vapid tiny map, is just nuts.

But he likes it right?

He obviously plays the game 24/7, right?, I mean he doesn't eat, sleep, or work, right?

I really dislike most genres of music, but I stick to a certain few, I know a lot of people don't like the music I listen to, is that wrong?

He sounds like he only sleeps or eats besides playing thunderstruck.

A lot of people here sound the same on their respective gamemodes, mostly because most people won't divulge a much of their personal lives.

If at least it was ztn... but thunderstruck.. really?

What ever floats your goat.

fucking aspie

I wish

You are not alone.

Have you talked to a doctor?

YOU PEOPLE ARE SLANDERING THE GOOD NAME OF AUTISM

Social phobia?

You're not autistic, you're just an asshole.

no thats what they all say, i can tell you all the sympotms including being preoccupied with all the crap like staring at walls for hours or sitting at monitor not being able to click on buttons cause i think it feels bad. it really is bad condition. especially outside i think like every person going my way is going to kill me. and i had no treatment and i am 26 living with a parent who is probably half-autistic.

and the worst i realize all these problems and that eventually i need to take care of myself and its very bad.

do you have anyone else you can talk to? takesix actually asked a very good question - have you talked to a doctor? they can probably point you to some free resources that may be able to help you figure out the best way to take care of yourself.

But you admit thes symptons. Can't you rationalize and see how stupid it is to think everyone wants to kill you? just lol.

Autism has a strong biological basis that persists despite exposure to the even world's greatest implementation of cognitive behavioral therapy. (One of these biological factors is the lack of neuronal "pruning" in early childhood, which means the less-used neurons/neuronal pathways are not removed.) Self-analysis does not enable one to fix one's own fundamentally atypical neural wiring, though techniques learned in CBT can help to control social problems. As for the fear of murder, this could be due to the influence of autism, or possibly a more serious mental issue, such as paranoid schizophrenia, which, in most cases, cannot be rationalized.

-buqwib

It's stupid to think everyone wants to kill you because you are a random guy.

-nemecel

I'm hella gay

-idsoftware

with my internet degree in mental disorders, that sounds more like schizophrenia + broken mind from shitty school and home conditions.

People had the wrong idea of me. Whenever I face people I simply go on full adrenaline mode. I hate it when they say go out and meet people, that's almost impossible in my case. I'm always confused in my head. I will be myself from now on and stop faking. People have simply no idea what happens in one others brain.

I was only trying to help the quake community.

If they did their research I do not belong to the community, I never speak personally here with other people.

At least some hardcore players are happy now, because they stop adding weird crap to quakelive. I stop touching quake, I'm terrible anyway and I don't deserve it.

I need better AND stronger medication. I don't know what I should ask this time.

Sometimes I think this community with people like you deserved no better...

i tought this was a thread about boshy

Embrace your autism. Get on twitch.tv and become TRULY autistic troll.

Seek help with a doctor would be the first thing, as they know A LOT more than us here, maybe think about CBT - Cognitive behavioral therapy? has helped many people with different things like social phobia, phobias in general, depression, OCD and so on.

How do you feel about taking any kind of medication to help a bit with your problem. (Illegal)Drugs can also help out but should of course be last way out and can bring you even further back.

Nootropics can not really help out with autism, but it can help out with anxiety, verbal fluidity, mood etc. Most of them are very safe without much side effects, but still make your own research on any kind of substance.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nootropic

For the more standard things that might not be the answer you're looking for now, but should be done by anyone that wants to live an enjoyable life(not saying it can't be done without these things). Good diet, exercise, meditation and sleep

i think maybe the reason that i ate mostly bread products my whole life cause my cooking skills are low. i think the reason for autims might be bad diet and eating too much prepared food. my family was poor whn iwas born and we ate very cheap stuff like flour products and bread, which might have caused it. also meditation might help i think yeah. but as far as i rememeber i had trouble speaking and was always preoccupied with non living objects like door handles and walls and stairs. i am not sure if cognitive therapy will work at all, its like being on drugs all the time. i think there is something in food that doesnt get digested proprely. it looks like either being poisoned by some food toxins from bad food over life time. i thought maybe there are drugs specific to geting out those food toxins affecting autism. there is also attention deficit disorder, like not paying attention to key things like people starting to talk to me being missed as unimportant. or if i start talking to them then it feels humiliating. which makes it very hard to make friends, i miss that key moment when they speak and then when i reply it feels random and awkward. it might be genetic though but i tend to think it has more to do with bad diet as i eat a lot of really bad cheap food.

What do you mean exactly with Cognitive behavioral therapy will be like being on drugs all the time? Yes, gluten and wheat can give some people brain fog, fatigue and other stuff. Have you checked your levels at the hospital so you're not deficient in any vitamins or similar? sometimes something simple as being deficient in magnesium can fuck people up. Have you been to a doctor and been diagnosed with autism?

Just to let you know, I'm not one to talk. I'm pretty sure I could ADD as well, but keep on putting it forward to get it diagnosed. The motivation is down to 0%. Could also be depression or both. But as said, a doctor will be the one best qualified to know these things. But giving other people advise is always so much more simple than to follow your own advise haha.

But yes, it's a start at least when it comes to the diet, do you have a job? that could help out a lot when it comes to making your own food and maybe leaving the house in the near future.

i think its 100 percent autism, but not retarded level, i cant easily talk to people and i keep attention away from people all the time. i dont think therapy will work, because it feels like i am on drugs (lack of attention, preocupation with non living objects).

1) take mdma
2) talk to therapist
3) observe

i think drugs are bad, i cant even live a normal life under this autism thing. i try to follow no milk no bread no fastfood diet and it helps some days more than others. now if there are some drugs that might help solve this but i have very few money.

http://motherboard.vice.com/blog/is-ecstasy-t...sm-anxiety

http://www.rawstory.com/rs/2014/03/28/mdma-he...d-out-how/

http://www.maps.org/research/mdma/mdma-assist...autistic_/

http://www.theguardian.com/science/2012/dec/2...s-disorder

http://mdmaptsd.org/research-category.html

They can be bad yes, but they can also be good in other ways. It's not just black or white. http://maps.org/ have a lots of different studies when it comes to drugs and things like PTSD, bipolar, autism and so on.

But I do agree with you, do go one step at a time. But don't reject different meds or drugs too quickly but should be last way out.

I promise you from personal experience in working with hundreds of people edible cannabis would help you. I've helped people with PTSD schizophrenia etc, all simply by eating large amounts of great quality cannabis. Which helps to regulate nearly everything in the human body.

420 !

Ty ty. He ignored anyway lol.

so, you mean smoking cannabis can help in this case ?

what work do you do ?

No i typed Eating cannabis would help to regulate nearly everything in his body. Cannabinoids regulate. Smoking will mostly only give you a temporary buzz witn minimal actual help. Eating is much more permanent.

For example, we had one guy that insisted on only vaporizing cannabis to coat the cancer in his lungs, because thc kills cancer cells when it comes in contact for an extended period of tme. His cancer was stopped in its tracks(stage four), but it wasnt untill we convinced him to eat about 300 of grams of hash oil in a couple months, that it all was coughed up soon after. Doctors in amazement.

After typing that, i realize thats regulation of an unrelated deisese, but still shows what it can do. My personal friend in Oregon could not go outside talk to people or hold any kind of normal job because of his PTSD. In no time he slowly reverted back to the personslity and light hearted banter i knew before the war...open and ready to take on the world job and all, very touching to say the least!

What do you advice? For nootropics

Depends on what you're after, cognitive enhancement, anxiety, focus, memory. Check out http://www.reddit.com/r/nootropics/wiki/beginners
and examine.com to read up on what ever you're thinking about taking.

First, do you eat healthy and exercise? do not think this is some miracle cure or what ever, will probably just make things a little bit more simple. None of the nootropics I tried worked for me. Also a lecture on drugs and how the brain works which is important to understand and not just try shit without having a clue what it might do to your brain. https://class.coursera.org/drugsandbrain-002/lecture/119

Read everything you can about what ever you take, even herbs and vitamins.

thank a lot. :)

thanks for being helpful. I started with l-theanine and it's pretty good for anxiety and calming me down.. I don't believe in miracles i am who i am. i don't know how those nootropics interact with my medication but at this point i'm willing to try everything. I don't take illegal drugs ever again. it makes me even more loopy.

maybe u got autism from any possible vaccination

as far as i researched its from bad diet of overeating fastfoods and milk and wheat products. (i have intestinal problems as well). i am very thin, i guess its some specific chemicals in foods that might cause this,

they say these chemicals dont get digested properly and produce drug like effects in the brain

as i often feel worse when i eat and better when i dont eat

are u using autism as a synonym or are u just plain stupid?

what do you mean to use it as synonim

i would never cared, things are just too bad right now,

so go see a fucking doctor. googling bullshit causes for a diagnosis you dont have doesnt help anyone, least of all you.

what i mean is that you refer to autism as a cause of bad digestion.

they say there is no cure, from my own experience it feels like autism symptoms are very similar to drug use, where people start behaving strangely, from my own experience i think its like allergy where some chemicals in foods cause this reaction, i still think normally but sometimes after i eat my mood changes and it feels like drug use

okay, im gonna try to give u some perspective. _VERY_ few with autism interact socially with anyone, that includes speaking. most people with autism (including adults) never speaks to another person in their entire life, the ones that do have almost no understanding of social interaction at all. if you were to speak with someone with autism you would be limited to direct, basic questions, and probably not get an answer if you didnt refer to them by name (and maybe not even then). keep in mind that most people (including adults) NEVER interect with anyone socially.

so tl;dr our idea of "austism" is skewed because the media propagates the wrong use of the term?

Kind of like the tumblr response generator that replaces every modern insult with "racist"?

im just trying to help some poor fella who believes he got autism from poor diet

Nowadays there is no assburger's anymore. It's all AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDER - be it mild burgerism or, as palatka described, batshit crazy mutes.

southpark episode is gold!

Lol should check that out.

Gluten intolerance? That shit is in everything these days. Your body cant digest it, so you effectively eat too little calories a day and miss out on vitamins and whatnot. Also causes damage to your intestines over time and slowly worsen symptoms. Just look up for a list of what you can and cant eat and see if it works; Or get a blood test at your docs office.
But tbh, I dont know if a certain diet can actually cause autism symptoms, it seems a bit too farfetched.

Go to a therapist and get on some form of benzo. Ativan or klonopin probably. Your life will be changed. I bet your stomach problems suddenly stop also. You sound just like me and klonopin changed my life.

Couldn't hold a job for shit. Anxiety nonstop. Mind spinning out of control. Felt like i was going to pass out half the damn day. Intense intestinal pain.

It all went away once i started taking benzos. Just dont ever stop taking them unless you want a ride straight to hell ;)

or unless you want to die from the withdrawals!

1.5 mg klonopin and it's still bad..

on a serious note, go see a doctor. if not for a diagnosis, get some fundemtanal knowledge regarding the diagnosis :D

Exactly, there's no way to know what the diagnosis is, until a doctor says it. Self-diagnose all you want eksy, but you will not be sure if it's actually what you have.

This journal's so autistic I can't even see comments.

I hate 'autistic' types you like, you're really just nerds who try to elevate themselves to a condition to try and make excuses because you read about stories on the internet like gary Mckinnon and go "gee, that sounds like me, hey' I'll take some of that shit".
Did it occur to you some of you are fucked up cos you' spent most of your lives locked in your bedroom playing miss pacman while the rest of your friends were going to discos and shit and now you can't function?

If you're going to have autism, I want to see you banging your head against a wall, or solving equations that no one else can, or smearing your own shit up a wall or something while your parents burst into tears at the paradoxical dilemma of hating what they are biologically compelled to love, that would at least be interesting to see.



Otherwise, you're really just a little bitch who can't overcome a few obstacles in life.

Life is one big spectrum.

yaaaay jamjamz is back

i am fucked, if i cant make friends means i am gone to institution of some sort or even become homeless, the most i head is like one or two friends at a time.

and i have headaches all the time now, its very hard because people are like chairs and i have to talk to them

even the diet i mean i try to follow it but its not like i became normal, it just reduced headaches and stupid behavior like repetetive moves

you're by far the most deluded fella ive seen on esr. that includes jamerio and heartless

you dont understand, the behaviour is completely abnormal, you just never seen me in real life, and in reality all i do is just copy how other people talk, this is not my way of doing things,

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder

its not that, people with mental disorders are not afraid of ALL people. in my case i cant even talk to anyone, i either talk when i really need something or not talk at all.

mental disorders can manifest in a large variety of different ways. its covered in the 15 year training doctors go through

doctors spend over 10 years studying before being allowed to diagnose people, you spent a few hours on the internet. after that you self-diagnosed yourself with autism, something that renders 1000/1000 adults completely unable to tend to themselves. the ones that work independantly to a very small degree are still reliant on personal in most aspects of their lives.

im not denying that theres something wrong with you, but autism is not it. if you want to know what it is, you will have to visit a doctor.

but, he's on the autism diet. it helps his headaches. sometimes.

im not joining this, but your view of autism is kind of rainman limited, which is only VERY severe cases if that's even classified as autism(which im not sure). Im pretty sure though that autistic people can be higher functioning than that. Meaning some can have lives where they care perfectly fine for themselves albeit not living a 'normal' life, whatever that is.

from wikipedia:
A 2004 British study of 68 adults who were diagnosed before 1980 as autistic children with IQ above 50 found that 12% achieved a high level of independence as adults, 10% had some friends and were generally in work but required some support, 19% had some independence but were generally living at home and needed considerable support and supervision in daily living, 46% needed specialist residential provision from facilities specializing in ASD with a high level of support and very limited autonomy, and 12% needed high-level hospital care.

if you moved into sub-categories of the autistic spectrum i think your chances of independancy would drastically increase, but for people with autism 'independancy' is prolly only relative to other autistic people

study of 68 adults diagnosed before 1980 .. but ok.

Not jam.

J A M E R I O
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are you fucking kidding? or just an ignorant/uneducated little child? trolls taken way too far, fuck you.

and no, i'm not autistic, i just know that mental diseases are very real, and that pretty much everything you wrote is garbage.

autism is a mental disorder, not a disease. what's even worse is aspergers, dont even get me started with that stuff.

I'm pretty delighted to see how after all this time you're still failing to cope with all the humiliation you received here Jamie.

While scarring you for life was indeed pretty fun, i suggest that instead of seeking psychiatric help you rather just embrace all the butthurt you're feeling. After all, it's now a very important part of you, just like the fat ass or that semi-functional brain. And it's only gonna last forever. I promised you i'm gonna trap you here in the butthurt forever, didn't I?

Now it's only a matter of time before you stab some old lady on the street. All the deranged cunts and psychos have a breaking point, and i've led you across yours already.



Coming to ESR only to find you crying in an Autism topic, who would have known. Priceless.

Thank you for putting a smile on my face again Jamie.



Gonna check again in a couple of months or a year to see how you're doing.

If you read your last 20 comments they are virtually all to me.
http://esreality.com/?a=users&user_id=11043

Before you made that comment in June (I only just saw it by chance as I do not have i-replies enabled), the last bunch of comments you had made were in January 2014, again all to me. And you have not made one since because I had not replied to the above. yet the second your name is mentioned in a video (that was made last year), you're on it like a bitch on heat within a week. Yet you're so angry at how I ruined you over the http protocol you only seem to respond when its to me.

It is I who has carried on using the site as normal, while you are the one with erratic spikes in your usage and subject which reflect the mental state I have put you in, which basically seem to revolve ENTIRELY AROUND ME in a desperate attempt to get back to the time where you actually used to use the site for anything other than moaning at me.

And unlike your words, people can actually see the cold hard data which shows what I did to you on the site :)

http://postimg.org/image/6a8abzr5t/

YOU GOT D.O.M.I.N.A.T.E.D.

I define your existence on this site, you define nothing about mine.
If that doesn't make you a victim, I don't know what does.

These months to years late replies of yours are truly mental.

ESR is horrible. Wow.

Why?

lol this s*** is full of dicks, can't you tell xD

excuse me?

stop hacking his swearwords

first step psychotherapist

I thought arkov was autistic when he first talked about Pussy Riot stealing his mod.

Right real talk here esky. My little brother is autistic and I asked him to read this thread to see if he recognized anything in your stories. He recognized literally nothing.

You are not autistic.


PS.: autism is genetic you tard, it's not caused by bad diet, there are just some theories a high-gluten diet might make your problems worse

so how can you recognize autistic behaviour of highly functioning autism (non retarded level) by my chat manners.

and you can diagnose yourself by googling

it seems to work, i can assume my autism wasnt treated since i stayed at home and never really talked to a doctor about it, but as far as psychaitry works, i think its a waste of time, they cant even diagnose a schitsophrenic person from autistic person and often put people in mental hospitals where they are abused for no reason.

you're so fucking deluded

I don't know, man. Schizophrenia is a very complex condition, the only real hard evidence of schizophrenia is damage to the frontal lobe, if damage isn't visible, you have twenty or more personality disorders to get through. It's not the doctor, it's the complexity of the brain and the labels given.

Autism, on the other hand has a spectrum. Unlike Schizophrenic suffers, Autistic people seem "more in the part of reality shared by others" - this makes it a great start to begin with.

I wouldn't knock the help you could receive, before you've even tried it. That's all I'm saying.

Low confidence, personal achievements, acknowledgements, mistakes, time, depression, google, hypocondria - complex health anxiety disorder and the complete lack of motivation and trust in others.

nice

and how can you tell for sure you got that condition?

1) go see a doctor
2) no, you are not dangerous for yourself or anyone else so you won't be put it to a mental hospital
3) go see a doctor

pussy riot plagiators

i got flu vaccine ever since ive been struggling with aiutism

BETTER CHANCE YOUR DIET

wring wart, mat

yeah try the glutenfree caseinefree diet, it helped me

thanks, you too

tl;dr: McDonalds makes you autistic.

if you aren't gluten intolerant you have no idea how much that shit can mess up your head. it basically acts as an opiate to the brain

Dunno about my head but I have to shit within the hour after a McDonalds.
A few months ago I had to shit within 100 metres of my home, I could not make it any further.

can't tell you how fucking soul destroying it is to wipe your ass with your own socks while being in view of home.

Its like an extra layer of fail, but when you need to shit that badly, nothing else seems to matter in life. At least until you've got the devil out of you.

everything at McDonalds is garbage except the ice cream. the meat is frozen and dried out, the protein being degraded in the process. the bread is gluten. the fries are fried in soybean oil that is used over and over, the large coca colas will surely fuck up your blood sugar and leave you in a terrible mood. all that shit is the perfect recipe to get you fat, miserable and your intestines proper fucked. Morgan Spurlock proved that shit

Quitting mcdonalds is like quitting quake, no matter how long you stay away, you know one day you'll load it up and do the bridge to rail jump to see if you still got it.

subways gives you sharpmind

I am not autism but I have no friends too...lol

nasa, , harold hill edbebekeeeba

I don't think I'm autistic and I don't share Hitlers opinion.

I'm extremely dumb or something. Nothing special

if I did any damage to what I'm sorry, I can't remember

ESR became a counseling board for neurodevlopmental disorders?


HOLY SHIT!!!!!


We've got retards who come ehre to complain that QL support did something to them and ask for reversal (yes, here, not using support ticket), we've got cheaters who come here to tell their sob stories and whore for love and acceptation, and now we have people asking for psychiatric/neurological disorders?

What next? People asking whether they can marry their cat or whether they should wipe their ass?

Consult Myers SM, Johnson CP, "Council on Children with Disabilities. Management of children with autism spectrum disorders". Pediatrics. 2007;120(5):1162–82.

Seriously though talk to your doctor if you really have autism (which should be treated and managed since early childchood so I bet you're already under heavy management/treatment).

It is a diease that starts with early childhood. I doubt that you're not treated on it if you have it.

And if you just suspect it, go to the doctor and diagnose yourself. Teenagers have weird problems that usually require psychological or psychiatrical counseling. Stop inventing diseases since you're not a MD.

Go unfuck yourself before I find a stick long enough to ram it into your brain straight thru your ass therefore performing a traumatic prefrontal lobotomy and freeing you from any doubts for years to come.

Sheesh.

You've been here for only a month Kappa

Telling to ESR about personal problems. Obvious troll is obvious.

Hear voices again and sorry d'r Phil
Peace
off internet for good obv

Food is very important and can really help, as you know. Check out some of the research done at Newcastle University.

Here is a link of one of the ladies (Professor Ann Le Couteur) who was part of it. There is her email address there too, so perhaps she can also point you in the right direction.

http://www.ncl.ac.uk/ion/staff/profile/a.s.le-couteur

Start with: eating lots of cilantro or drinking cilantro tea/soup (to remove mercury and aluminium, which are excellent at causing autism, see this video for a start about it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85tgwh3HpsM ), brewers yeast (vitamin B is great for the brain), magnesium chloride (magnesium deficiency is common and creates anxiety, etc) activated sodium chlorite to generate chlorine dioxide (great for cleaning your system of silent virus, parasities, etc that chronically affect you) homeopatic nosodes (to help reverse the neurological/immunological damage)

Research the work of Dr Carley (expert in vaccine induced damage) and Dr Moulden (expert in vaccine induced brain damage)

Interesting about homeopatic nosodes (to help reverse the neurological/immunological damage) did you have any direct links for this? (when searched for, all that came up was cats and dogs and vets!!)

but this:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homeopathy

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